In these 4 short months I have learned so much about myself.
I've learned....
- How I can totally function with very very little sleep. I have only had a few zombie moments where I got caught staring at the wall at work.
- I can be a working mom. In the beginning I did not think I was going to be able to do it. It's still very hard to leave him everyday and it gets harder as the weeks go on. I live for the weekends. I really miss all the time we had together, all the wonderful naps and the feeling of not being rushed. I am suffering from something a fellow working mom Kelly calls "mommy guilt". I feel guilty every time I have to leave him even thought I know I have to work to support him.
- Pumping at work is the pits. On the bright side I do get a 20 minute break every 3 hours. The down fall is that I get a lot of time to think and it kinda makes me feel lonely. Again "mommy guilt" comes into play. This is time I could be bonding with my boy.
- Breastfeeding is still hard. I know it is supposed the most natural thing in the world, but we are still trying to get the hang of it. Most of the time it works out great and then there are the days it seems like his is just playing around.
- Dog hair sticks to everything... I find it everywhere. All over Lincoln, his bag, his toys his cloths, even my pumping stuff has evidence of Frankie on it. No matter how much I clean and vacuum, it just keeps spreading.
Lincoln has grown so much. He is finally out of the newborn cloths and diapers. As of last week my sweet 5 pound baby is now 13 pounds. I can't believe how big he is getting.
I love that everyday he learns something new. He rolled over for the first time this month, and like a good mom I tried to get it on video and totally screwed it up. I did get a really blurry picture of him on his side.
He pees on everything and I think he finds it humorous. Nothing is safe. It's a good day when I show up for work with out some sort of bodily fluid on me. To be honest that has not happened as of yet ;). Breast milk or pee it seems like I am always covered in it. From what I hear from other moms with boys it does not get any better. I'm going to have a lot of bathroom cleaning time in my future.
We had our fist battle with antibiotics. That pink mess is awful. Why is it flavored bubble gum? He has no idea what bubble gum tastes like, but now he is going to hate it because it will taste like medicine. My poor boy had ear infections in both ears.
He is really beginning to play. I think he is going to be a kid who can play by his self or with friends. He loves his lion king play mat and sometime he cries and freaks out until we put him down so he can play on it.
He loves watching tv. We will sit him up in his bumbo and he will sit there and just watch the screen and play with his toys or if he is on his mat he will turn on his side so he can see.
His first christmas was a time that I will never forget. (The key to opening presents again as an adult is to have a kid.) I have a truly amazing family that surrounds us with so much love. Not to mention they spoil him rotten.
These first 4 months have absolutely flown by, and I can't wait to see what is to come.
